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'save me,' you breathed, dropping those words gently into my ear from your full, red lips.
save me. a time bomb in the form of a time bomb.
i just didn't know you meant it.
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'there is nothing better than a brisk day in December,' you told me, our hands beneath wool gloves clasped together.
you took pictures of our intertwined fingers and the corners of our mouths as they touched.
the trees were skeletal and the cardinals that perched sporadically in them gave the illusion that they were bleeding.
bleeding skeletal trees frozen in Central Park, captured by your camera lense.
this is what we were surrounded by as we walked hand in hand, your voice like wind chimes.
playful and light, coming and going with the breeze.
it just took me a while to realize that my love was the breeze that fueled you.
but by then, you had grown mute, your wind chimes dropped to the ground.
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we stood in your kitchen and your slight shoulders were draped with a blanket your mother had knit.
it was soft and you kept it folded when it wasn't being used.
it was special to you as you hugged it close to yourself, steam visibly rising from the mug you held.
you put it down on the messy table and picked up your camera, snapping a picture of my groggy morning self.
my hair was messy and my face was scruffy, but you looked at me as if i was perfection.
as if i didn't have scars on my hands from being clumsy.
as if i didn't have a crooked nose from fighting.
as if i didn't have chapped lips from letting the winter air get at me.
as if i was filled with love.
that was your only mistake, to believe that i was filled with love when really i was running out of it.
and i couldn't find or stop the leak.
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'i love you more than anything. you put a smile on my face whenever i see you.
my heart pounds whenever i see your name pop up on my phone.
or whenever i see your face pop up in my camera memory.
when i wake up next to you, i want to lay there with you forever.
you are my everything. don't forget that.'
how could i forget your love?
and how could i forget it when it was scrawled out on your suicide note?
howhowhow?
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it had been one week and two days since i had broken up with you.
my love had run out but we ran into each other on the street, your camera dangling from your neck.
you smiled but i could see the bags underneath your eyes crying out for sleep to come and take them away.
i said hey and you asked how i had been.
we talked until you had to go, you were going to miss your train across town.
when you hugged me i was caught by surprise, loosely embracing you back as you clung to me.
'save me,' you breathed and when you pulled away, tears in your eyes, i didn't know what to do.
you did not take a picture as i nodded a goodbye and scurried off.
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it was the next day i received a call that said i had been mentioned by name in a suicide note.
the note written by you before you hung yourself.
they wanted to talk to me and i said sure before i hung up and promptly collapsed to the floor.
i shook violently for what seemed like hours, not even being able to stand when they called me back and left a message.
they told me they had found a book, a scrap book, filled with pictures of us together.
kissing, holding, hugging, walking, talking, eating, breathing, sleeping.
they asked if i would like to have it but i did not reply as my teeth chattered and shook my skull.
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they knocked on my door and eventually pushed their way in to see if i had killed myself too.
i had not; i lay asleep where i had collapsed.
when i awoke, i found your mother's blanket that still smelled like you draped over me.
i wanted to throw up and cry at the same time, but i did neither.
i lay still until your face was the only image in my mind.
until you were the only thing in my life.
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i would go on living.
you would be dead.
i would keep the scrap book and blanket in a box in my future attic in my future home which i would live in with my future wife and kids.
i would never forget you, the one i did not love.
save me. a time bomb in the form of a time bomb.
i just didn't know you meant it.
+
'there is nothing better than a brisk day in December,' you told me, our hands beneath wool gloves clasped together.
you took pictures of our intertwined fingers and the corners of our mouths as they touched.
the trees were skeletal and the cardinals that perched sporadically in them gave the illusion that they were bleeding.
bleeding skeletal trees frozen in Central Park, captured by your camera lense.
this is what we were surrounded by as we walked hand in hand, your voice like wind chimes.
playful and light, coming and going with the breeze.
it just took me a while to realize that my love was the breeze that fueled you.
but by then, you had grown mute, your wind chimes dropped to the ground.
+
we stood in your kitchen and your slight shoulders were draped with a blanket your mother had knit.
it was soft and you kept it folded when it wasn't being used.
it was special to you as you hugged it close to yourself, steam visibly rising from the mug you held.
you put it down on the messy table and picked up your camera, snapping a picture of my groggy morning self.
my hair was messy and my face was scruffy, but you looked at me as if i was perfection.
as if i didn't have scars on my hands from being clumsy.
as if i didn't have a crooked nose from fighting.
as if i didn't have chapped lips from letting the winter air get at me.
as if i was filled with love.
that was your only mistake, to believe that i was filled with love when really i was running out of it.
and i couldn't find or stop the leak.
+
'i love you more than anything. you put a smile on my face whenever i see you.
my heart pounds whenever i see your name pop up on my phone.
or whenever i see your face pop up in my camera memory.
when i wake up next to you, i want to lay there with you forever.
you are my everything. don't forget that.'
how could i forget your love?
and how could i forget it when it was scrawled out on your suicide note?
howhowhow?
+
it had been one week and two days since i had broken up with you.
my love had run out but we ran into each other on the street, your camera dangling from your neck.
you smiled but i could see the bags underneath your eyes crying out for sleep to come and take them away.
i said hey and you asked how i had been.
we talked until you had to go, you were going to miss your train across town.
when you hugged me i was caught by surprise, loosely embracing you back as you clung to me.
'save me,' you breathed and when you pulled away, tears in your eyes, i didn't know what to do.
you did not take a picture as i nodded a goodbye and scurried off.
+
it was the next day i received a call that said i had been mentioned by name in a suicide note.
the note written by you before you hung yourself.
they wanted to talk to me and i said sure before i hung up and promptly collapsed to the floor.
i shook violently for what seemed like hours, not even being able to stand when they called me back and left a message.
they told me they had found a book, a scrap book, filled with pictures of us together.
kissing, holding, hugging, walking, talking, eating, breathing, sleeping.
they asked if i would like to have it but i did not reply as my teeth chattered and shook my skull.
+
they knocked on my door and eventually pushed their way in to see if i had killed myself too.
i had not; i lay asleep where i had collapsed.
when i awoke, i found your mother's blanket that still smelled like you draped over me.
i wanted to throw up and cry at the same time, but i did neither.
i lay still until your face was the only image in my mind.
until you were the only thing in my life.
+
i would go on living.
you would be dead.
i would keep the scrap book and blanket in a box in my future attic in my future home which i would live in with my future wife and kids.
i would never forget you, the one i did not love.
Literature
i stayed home monday
i stayed home monday because i wanted to cry and write broken poetry of how my ribs are no fortress composed of marrow but shards of memories cross-stitched to spine.
i decided sometime by mid-morning all i wanted was for you to encircle me and whisper gentle words across my shoulder that would dip around my lower-back and find home in my chest.
i envisioned cardiac surgeons tangling their hands in my thoracic cavity and struggling to find my heart, but only coming back to an empty waiting room with scattered slips of paper detailing a midnight heist.
as i mouthed words scratched into a bathroom stall, i hoped each consonant would tumble f
Literature
who will you be tomorrow, love
some days,
you are a curious girl
--the most curious one
in the world, in fact.
on these days,
you would fuck the storm
to deliver me an umbrella
some days,
all you want is
for pangaea to reform,
for x to equal y,
for us to be miscible,
and for everyone else
to fuck off
and on these days,
you hate your body
for not being right,
but i fucking love you
in spite of the flaws
you don't really have.
i like the days best,
when you're on my bed
and you want me on yours.
these days,
you're more beautiful than ever,
prettier than a fucking rainbow.
but you must realize
how hard that is,
how hard i am,
considering the situa
Literature
an honest day's business
I've been circling
truth
is a circle and
truth's
been circling
too
(long) like
my reach
spanning decades
as grasping
is collapsing
despondent displays
of handcrafted
delicate situations
been busy with work
and busy
working on
nothing
hopin'
for erosion
of her
otherwise
fertile soil
but our
hearts are
a trap-
door
with its own trap-
door
on its own
(heart)
always hard up
for something
and always
hardly
up to
nothing
I've been
erodin'
in this
otherwise
fertile soul
preachin' the
gospel of
two types
unavailable
and
uninterested
yet always
heavily invested
in the merging
of our company
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this is so plain.
i don't know if i like it or not.
i mean, i like it.
but it's so plain and emotionless.
it's so.
unlike what i usually write.
this would be school acceptable though.
kinda.
thoughts?
i don't know if i like it or not.
i mean, i like it.
but it's so plain and emotionless.
it's so.
unlike what i usually write.
this would be school acceptable though.
kinda.
thoughts?
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i feel the need to document the comments i'm giving you in person.
a time bomb in the form of a time bomb.
lovelovelove
there is nothing better than a brisk day in December,'
needs a ' at the beginning of the line.
the trees were skeletal and the cardinals that perched sporadically in them gave the illusion that they were bleeding.
love this image.
it was special to you as you hugged it close to yourself, steam visibly rising from the mug you held.
it was only special at that moment? cause that's how i'm reading it.
'i love you more than anything. you put a smile on my face whenever i see you.
my heart pounds whenever i see your name pop up on my phone.
or whenever i see your face pop up in my camera memory.
when i wake up next to you, i want to lay there with you forever.
you are my everything. don't forget that.'
and how could i forget it when it was scrawled out on your suicide note?
GAHHHHHHHH
when i awoke, i found your mother's blanket that still smell like you draped over me.
smelled
i would never forget you, the one i did not love.
great ending.
as to that which you asked me to comment on... yes, the ending is a little detached. so is the beginning. but it works. they form a little frame around the story.
i love this. it's so sad. but so powerful.
a time bomb in the form of a time bomb.
lovelovelove
there is nothing better than a brisk day in December,'
needs a ' at the beginning of the line.
the trees were skeletal and the cardinals that perched sporadically in them gave the illusion that they were bleeding.
love this image.
it was special to you as you hugged it close to yourself, steam visibly rising from the mug you held.
it was only special at that moment? cause that's how i'm reading it.
'i love you more than anything. you put a smile on my face whenever i see you.
my heart pounds whenever i see your name pop up on my phone.
or whenever i see your face pop up in my camera memory.
when i wake up next to you, i want to lay there with you forever.
you are my everything. don't forget that.'
and how could i forget it when it was scrawled out on your suicide note?
GAHHHHHHHH
when i awoke, i found your mother's blanket that still smell like you draped over me.
smelled
i would never forget you, the one i did not love.
great ending.
as to that which you asked me to comment on... yes, the ending is a little detached. so is the beginning. but it works. they form a little frame around the story.
i love this. it's so sad. but so powerful.